Not Going Well

So they (hospital) say my mom has blood clots in her lungs.  She is admitted to the hospital and other than that I know little except that one blood clot usually kills you!  Tried to talk to someone with an eating disorder today and all I got was kinda "your not in control of things".  She means well and she is very sweet but that's just it!  I'm not in control and it's killing me.  I can however control what I eat and I will not eat!  I will not!