I HATE MY JOB! I do however have an interview today with another company. More in my field of work. Hope it goes well.
I didn't stick with my fast. Did only two days! I feel like such a failure!!!!!!!!!! So weak!!!!!!! I really hate myself for not staying Strong! I did only eat veggie soup and some Wasabi peas when I finally ate.
Today is a new day. (I hope) I got up and made veggie soup, with broth and tofu. I lived off this for months and lost weight. It has cabbage, tomatoes, carrots, celery, tofu, spinach and zucchini. I hope I can stick to it.
I was a little concerned that I was getting soooooooo irritable last nite. How would I do my interview today if I was cranky and couldn't think straight???
So two cups of Chia tea with a smiggin of non fat milk and splenda. Plus my usual tons of Pepsi Max.
At my job people are so fake. I'm fake. I sold 188% yesterday and I have no idea how! I hate people but I must fake it well? How can I honestly tell someone something looks good or bad on them when I have sales %???? I have to tell them it looks great! And smile. Don't forget the smile.
UGH! My moods go between elated and then super depressed. Maybe, I'm BiPolar??? Great! The meds are a weight gainer. So I won't be doing that. I will do my normal and put on a happy face and not let anyone know how I really feel except those of you who read this.
Gotta go BF waking up!
Restrict and Starve on!
Until we are bones!
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