MORNING

As usual I am up early.  Hate it.  Only went to bed about four hrs ago.
Studied all day yesterday for some classes I had to take.  UGH!  The one class really stumps me.  It's all about the heart.  For some reason the heart and it's function just baffles me.
Drank tea and diet soda like a mad women.  Didn't eat until 7 or 730 last night.  Which is good for me.  Had a salad with goat cheese and some low cal noodle soup with mushrooms but as usual I felt very guilty and purged 99% of it up.  Which wouldn't have been so bad but then I ate two 70 cal sugar free pudding cups, a cheese sandwich (25 cal cheese X2, on 100 cal bread without dressing) and a medium apple.  So lets see that's 140 + 150 + 80 + 150 (1% left from purging)= 520 right?  Plus, I ran for almost 4 miles.  So I would have thought the scales would have been down but nooooooooo they are up a pound!  F*** Me!
Some days I want to give up and say, "I'll just be fat!" but this thing in my head (ANA/MIA) keeps me from doing that.  I guess that's a good thing.
Whatever.