So yesterday was my "new" attempt at fasting. Have been reading a lot of pro ana sites. Best one for fasting has been http://evacanfly.blogspot.com/2010_10_01_archive.html . I only ate a few deep fried mushrooms late last nite and then vomited them up. I think I got out 90%. Problem is my purge had some blood in it. I think this is mainly due to all the Ibuprofen (Advil) I take several times a day for pain. Talked to my mom a little last nite about what's been going on. I made light of it as much as possible. I don't think anyone thinks I can continue anyway. Maybe (probably) they see me as weak too??? I'll show everyone.
Little dizzy when I got up today. Ketosis strips show very little. (Ketosis is a state your body goes into once it's eating fat) I wish the strip would turn dark soon. It feels like progress when it does. I need progress.
Weight down almost two pounds since yesterday. 217.6lbs Shouldn't I feel proud?? I just see how fat I've become and how much damage I've done! I hate what I've become. Rolls and rolls of fat.
So I will stick to my fast and maybe by tomorrow some of that will be gone but not enough of it I'm sure!
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